"Angels follow orders, we exist and we plan for things but..." he trails off, feeling acutely the gap between his present and his past. "We are not supposed to covet or to want or to feel. Some do, of course, rebel but until you I did none of those things. And until now, while my life was changed vastly through my contact with you, there was little time for wanting."
He clears his throat, ears equally red as he straightens his silverware. "While living as a human, I was married. Emmanuel, as I was known, and his wife enjoyed marital benefits. But...it is like with Jimmy. I have memories but the sensations are not present. I have no experience as myself," he admits, raising his eyes to Dean's, hoping the admission will not deter Dean from wanting to try. "But I have imagined things. Many different things. And Neil supplied me with instructional videos. Dean, you make me want."
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Date: 2013-05-02 03:56 am (UTC)He clears his throat, ears equally red as he straightens his silverware. "While living as a human, I was married. Emmanuel, as I was known, and his wife enjoyed marital benefits. But...it is like with Jimmy. I have memories but the sensations are not present. I have no experience as myself," he admits, raising his eyes to Dean's, hoping the admission will not deter Dean from wanting to try. "But I have imagined things. Many different things. And Neil supplied me with instructional videos. Dean, you make me want."